| timbuktu |
| (journeyman) |
| 10/04/09 03:30 PM |
Re: Building self confidence back up
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I know exactly what you mean regarding learning how to trust again. I've done a little bit of dating and it turned out to be nothing but a nightmare since it seems most men just want something more "casual". That's definately not for me!! I have met a really nice guy that's willing to take it slow so I'm just going to see what happens with it.
It's just really scary after you've been in a relationship/marriage for a really long time, given it your all..know everything about the person including family, mutual friends, etc., only to start all over again. We've been separated since January and he's been living with this girl in California since then, but has since moved back to my hometown. He's since gotten his own apartment and rumor has it that she's going to be joining him the end of October so that they can get married...but we haven't even filed any papers yet so I don't know how that's immediately possible.
It's been a long road to hoe..many tears later..and I'm on all sorts of meds to keep my sanity. On top of all that, due to the economy I'm finding it hard to find employment so most of the time, out of boredom, all I wanna do is sleep all day and then I'm up all night watching tv when there's nothing on but stupid infomercials.
UGH!! When does life start getting better??