| AloneInTheDark |
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| 10/06/09 09:22 AM |
Re: Building self confidence back up
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I am sure it will take time. If I get the divorce (decided to fight it since MS is a cause state and that is one sure way of not losing my kids since I was not "cruel and inhumane" to her, she just wants to be single to do what she wants with other men) I know it will take me a long while not to wonder if the women I meet/date will do the same thing to me that my current wife has done. I almost wish I had been "cruel and inhumane". At least I could accept it easier that the marriage should end.
If it comes to that, I will learn to trust again or I will be forever one of those looking for "casual" relationships only.
I am a simple man in some ways. I meant my wedding vowels and it will forever bother me that she decided she only meant then until she got bored after we were married somewhere between the 16-17 year point. Then decided that the only effort she wanted to put in was to break up the family, not get unbored and closer together again.
How will I know the next woman I like/fall in love with, wont do the same thing? I am an optimistic and think that someday, I will get to that point but am not truly sure if I can or not to be honest.