| Lovemygirls |
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| 08/03/08 10:51 AM |
update
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Doesn't matter what the disagreement was about, no excuse for acting like that. Regarding the family counseling, we have but she doesn't seem to take it seriously, don't make an effort to make appointments, etc. The counselor who sees us both individually also said he thought she was avoiding counseling. Anyway.
So for the update. Things were good for a few days. I think it was around the time that we had sex once or twice. Then it was back to the same old same old. For example, we got into a fight and I mentioned moving out and she said "grow a pair and leave". And yesterday she made a comment about me watching stupid 80s B movies and I said that was watching a show on the National Geographic Channel about Green Berets in Afghanistan. She said "you don't even know where Afghanistan is". Then this am, she has a cold and she's still sleeping (its almost noon). And i tried to get her up and she said "be a man and take care of your own kids for a while". Real nice huh? There is more, but its always talking down to me and flipping out on me and losing her temper. I have an opportunity to rent one of my family's properties that just became available. I've been thinking about it for a long time. I hate the fact that a family could be broken up. Its really saddening. Both of our parents are still together and I just feel like we owe it to our kids to stay together no matter how miserable we are. Then some days I think that time is precious and if we just keep staying together thinking things are going to get better as the kids get a little older and it isn't so hectic that half our life will be over and we'll both be miserable and nothing will get better. I mean, I know that stress brings out the worst in people but we just despise each other half the time. I feel like we just aren't right for each other.
Before Kathleen found out she was pregnant with our first child, she said she was going to leave me. We were sleeping in separate rooms and everything. I tried to talk to her about why she wanted to leave and asked her to go to counseling and she refused and wouldn't change her mind. It wasn't until she found out about being pregnant that decided to stick around.
I just don't know what to do. I can't stand the thought of not seeing my girls every day and what I think it will do to my oldest. I feel like its going to devastate her. I am so lost I don't want to make a bad decision.