I really love my wife, I rarely show it however. Things are really rough around our house. She was married before, had 3 kids, and their father is still in the picture, which is good for the kids, no problems there, just laying out the platform. I'm a controlling, very jealous man when I'm married apparently, I didn't know that until after getting married, ha. I want to save my married with my wonderful and beautiful wife, I just don't know how to keep progressing. One day I'll be fine, we'll be fine, things will be great and then WHAM-O hello Mr. Nasty. I'm back and forth on issues involving our relationship. If she smiles at another guy, I get this horribly gut feeling. I've been cheated on in 2 out of 3 relationships I've been in, and I'm so closed off and protective of myself now, trying to keep from going down that road again, so much in fact that I hurt her in the process by suffocating her. We spend all of our time together, if we don't I get that feeling that she's seeing someone else. The only thing that bothers me is the fact that she saw her ex twice after the divorce, I'm worried she would go back to him still, she hid this from me until recently, but it shouldn't matter because we weren't together. I feel like a real [censored] not treating her better, and God knows I should treat her better. I guess I'm just at a loss for what to do. I feel like I can't breathe and survive without her. I just can't see myself being without her. She completes me, and compliments everything we do. We're great together, but we have a lot of issues, A LOT of issues that take place. I want this fixed, I just don't know how to do it. We've been together for about a year.
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