After much deliberation, I have chosen not to attend. I am ok with that, and H is ok with it. He rented a van, is taking the girls and 3 grand kids. His ex, her H and one gkid will go with them. They will all drive the 600+ miles to the base. I will stay home in a peaceful household and do what I want. LOL. It will be too hectic, and to me it was more important that his parents were there. After the incident over the weekend of the oldest Grandson pitching a fit and being carried kicking and screaming to the game field, I do NOT feel I am equipped right now with dealing with small children. Once I have a few more sessions with the counselor, and he gives me the tools I need to handle things, maybe I will be better around them and his ex. But right now, I am overly sensitive to everything. The meds are not working, will be seeing the GP again to tell her. Still have bouts of crying, and depression is still a black cloud over my head. The lack of sleep is not helping. Even with sleeping pills, I still get up a few times a night, and end up awake at 3 or 4 am, not going back to sleep.
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