and a little angry at myself for not going on the trip. At the very least to be supportive of SS. BM wrote a note on FB about how she was glad the girls got to be there to see their brother commissioned. One of their friends posted something about how lucky he is to have such a supportive "family". I feel like I'm never going to be "part" of that family. It will always be BM, H and the kids. I know that's normal, but why am I angry and ready to cry reading that???? Why did I deprive myself of this important part of SS's life? I feel selfish, and just like mum right now. She'd pull shyte like that too. Then boo hoo when she didn't go somewhere or do something b/c she "said" she didn't want to when in reality she did. Ok, someone slap me and stop me from feeling sorry for myself b/c right now I am wallowing in the crap. LOL
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Now I'm sad