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| 05/25/12 11:49 PM |
Re: Now I'm sad
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[quote]Like I said, I was wallowing, and taking things too personally last night. Logically, I know I am part of the family, as evidenced by SD's comment a few weeks ago; that sometimes she likes me more than her dad. That she thinks I'm "awesome". That is why I am in therapy, to stop the second guessing, wondering, and taking everything everyone says as a personal affront. It has always been my biggest downfall, as was mum's. I need help in building the tools to work on this, and that is why I will continue the therapy. Thank you. :) [/quote]
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Allow yourself some time to wallow.....then remind yourself that that is not the whole story.
You CHOSE not to go on this trip.....for a REASON !
I have chronic pain issues. When I am in a pain flare and my kids are obnoxious......I have thoughts that they are just mean and cruel individuals. Worries that they inherited some of their gene pools from their dad......and that they will never be able to empathize with others because they are disrespectful to me when I am down. Then I have lower pain days when I can see rationally that they are normal teens, and have their self absorbed moments, but that I do have a lot to be thankful for. They have their obnoxious times, but they do seem to be on a decent track.
Have your momenta of stress. Feel the anger and the frustration. Then.....start a new day and re-evaluate with a fresh perspective.
You knew there would be times to treasure on this occassion. You also knew there could be times marked by old conflicts....that's why you CHOSE not to participate in this event. You have other memories with your ss....and you will make more. You avoided this trip for a reason. You didn't want to engage in new conflicts with bm during this time. You have avoided that conflict. Mission accomplished. Don't second guess yourself now.