I'm a SAHM who is 38 years old and having my fifth child. The last three by my husband now. We've been married for 6 1/2 years. He's in the Military and from the very beginning it's been turbulent. I've done any and everything to fix this marriage...we've even been on Dr. Phil for it. There's been constant lying, decieving, manipulation, terrible anger, some violence, screaming (a drill sergeant in the face), and definently I believe infidelity. I've been psychologically abused for this entire marriage and it's embarrassing (I always thought of myself as strong woman). Every councelor that we've seen has told him he was abusive. I somewhat believe that my husband loves me but he can't change the bad that's in him. I'm his fourth wife and he's had two bankrupts; one before me and one after. He's stolen, he cheats the military and he's extremely irresponsible as a civilian. He still continues to repeat hisory ruining any chance of owning a house or being financially stable. The only reason I've been a SAHM is because of the moving and then him leaving and traveling for the past 3 1/2 years. Every time I talked about getting a job he definently put the seed in my head that it wouldn't be worth it. Now here I am, finally coming to the conclusion that I'm going to end up in a hospital if I continue this marriage. We almost went through a divorce less then a year ago but we didn't. I moved to Indiana from Ohio so that he'd be in one place and we would be able to work on this marriage. He is now stationed in Texas very close to retiring but I don't love him anymore and I want out. If anyone knows of any help that's out there for a mother of 5, four of which are still being raised ( one still not born) please let me know. I'm really scared and I want to do what's best for my children. Please don't judge me. Please help if you can. Thank you everone. [color:blue] [/color] [color:blue] [/color]
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Im in Indiana as well, completely overwhelmed!