Divorce Source: Just numb and silent I am back

Ok here goes another holiday full moon weekend that only this time ended ( or begun) in a physical and violent nature.
Some backround in how it begun.
Watching tv under the covers (naked mind you since I was going to sleep soon and like I do everynight after I say good night to my son. My husband with the remote places it on my shoulder. I put it down behind me. Repeat this 6 times. Meanwhile he is saying "here put on what you want" and I say " thats ok" Repeat 6 times.
Finally I take both remotes and whip them across the room.
He then whacks me in the side so hard I almost puke. SO I slapped him back all while laying on my side.
Ok what happens after that I am still tyring to uncover it since it happened Friday night. I remember BOTH of us chocking each other but I was trying to stick up for myself, All I know is I have bruises and feel like I got hit by a truck. We have been married for nearly five years and never has anything like this happened.
Needless to say I left with my son and went to a friends house. I came home the next day to discuss matters. I told him it would be best if he just left very nicely for the sake of my son or that he needed to give me some $ to move out. Needless to say I thought it was understood he was to leave. He did for an hour came home and said he needed two weeks to move back into hims moms. (Ps his room there is still just like he left it). I just go about my buisness and think this is great maybe I can figure things out. I know I am crazy I know I am hard to live with I know I have lived with out meds in three years and its been ok. But I do know I am just sick over this fight and ready to just settle with him again and sacrificing all I deserve, you can read my last letters on here somewhere. Nothing has changed. He is still a manipulator with money and I finnaly asked him why he uses money over me. He said he was just trying to take care of things. Like yesterday buying me socks and knitting needles and "spoiling my son". I just don't get it. Maybe he is really sorry but I know I just can't change in front of him or even look at him. I just knit and think about what happened especially when I am in pain and feel like crap. I wish I could just leave but this was my house before he ever came into my life and sorry I am not leaving. And I doubt he will either since his name is on the mortage. We are just not meant to be I can feel it. He just pretends like it never happened and said in one of the two disscussions " It happened it is what it is" He said sorry in discussion #2 but that was after I said he didn't say it. Well I think this is long enough so let me have it whats next?