Hey all, some of you may have heard from earlier post that I have had a crush on a co-worker. Well last week I was out with a girlfriend having dranks and he was shotting pool so we stopped into to see him. Well after many hours of talking and dranking we all three ending up sitting outside the bar in his truck eating a bar pizza, it was closing time and they told us we couldn't eat the pizza inside. Well after one piece of pizza being the best friend she is my friend got in my truck. Which lead to me and the crush doing a little kissing. Let me tell you he was an awesome kisser, I don't know if that's because I haven't kissed anyone in so long or what, but I just think he's really good in that area.
Anyway, the next day at work everything was the same as it always is, we did get a moment alone and joked about wishing we could take a nap for the afternoon, and he joked with saying you wanna take a nap with me. I really want to say something to him, but I am afraid that I will scare him off, or come on to much. So I just try to be cool, and get what moment's of flirting I can.
I am not looking for anything long term, I would just like it if we could be friends that could hang out and have fun and maybe a little more "fun" every once in awhile.
I don't know maybe I am still not recovered enough to begin that with someone, my disease "loving to much" I mean I don't think or get sad about the X as much as a was, heck I haven't talked to him in 3 weeks, that's a whole different story on another forum, basically HE's an idoit who thinks he's so smart!
So I guess what I am asking is what should I do with the guy and the situation that I and him have created? All I know is that he hasn't really ever dated, never been married, has no kids, and is the same age as I am, he's a bachelor!!! I mean do I just wait and see what happen's the next time I am out and see him? Or do I just get over it and move on like it was just a fun night and leave it at that.
I guess the loneliness get's to you and when you get one little drop in the bucket of something that is nice, like and awesome kiss you want the drips of water to keep falling into your bucket! You know what I mean?
So any advice? and yes I know I know doing things with co-workers many say isn't a good idea, but I and I think he couldn't help it, we have been flirting for months, and finally a little physical came and it was sooooo nice guys, it's been a week and I still think of that kiss.
Advice, words of wisdom for a 17 year old trapped in a 28 year old body would be great!!! Thanks all ;-)
-------------------- In three words I can sum up everything
I've learned about life:
It goes on.
(Robert Frost)
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