Me sarcastic ??? never.... okay just a lil...
Here is my theory, take it for what its worth. I met my EX, and we hit it off... I am talking great conversations, great fun, my friends and her friends clicked, we just clicked. If it was a plot to a movie you wouldnt believe it... And we got married after 8 monthes roughly. And everything was going fine, til her business started to suffer and money got tight. And then I realized her irresponsiblities. I mentioned this before in an early post, but it was bad which compiled more troubles than the money itself. I couldnt deal with it, made me shut down emmotionally to think someone I trusted and loved would hide the fact that she didnt pay the mortgage for 3 monthes and then would have no idea what she spent the 5000 dollars on instead? Other problems mounted too... Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tried to work through it, but i realized other lil things I didnt like started popping up, lack of trust when I was out with my guy friends, etc , etc... but i dont wanna make a long story any longer... yada yada yada. Divorce.. However now we are great friends as long as i dont have to deal with her (ir)responsiblities.
Sooooooooo I learned not to fall for someone (sorry, lack for a better phrase) until I know they have their head on straight. Im not gonna lie, I date around alot. Since January... Maybe 20 some girls I have been on atleast 1 date with? And something didnt click, or it did for about a month or so and then I trusted them a lil more and it just didnt work. I realize alot of the the "good" ones are taken, and sometimes you have to find someone who isnt necissarily "good" or "perfect" but I want someone who is good and perfect for me. I can deal with imperfections. Its what makes us individuals, Im sarcastic and some girls really like that (as long as I use it in the right situations. Like in long lines at walmart, so they smile as we wait 30 mins to buy milk and her favorite cookies)
Anywho, I think I might have found someone pretty awesome. We have been talking for like a month and finally made time to get out about a week ago. 3 dates so far, every time we have a great time. Actually on the first date talked in the car til 4 am. I didnt even kiss her til the 3rd date. Arnt you guys proud of me? Really, we do have alot of the same interests. She seems to have her [censored] together, very similar personalities. She accepts my flaws... divorced and with a child and living with his father and mother as he recovers from cancer (he's 130 lbs now and just started chemo a month ago) Hows that for a deal breaker?
Im 33 and shes only 24... Yeah I know =.) But omg, she has so much going for her, I could go on all day about what I like. However like I said a month of talking and a week of dating is too soon, and I usually have a month limit til it all goes to crap anyways. LOL....
I have a lil 3yr old boy that is the world to me... OBVIOUSLY... He is my heart, my smile, my comfort, my pride, my conscience and most importantly my best friend.
I don't want this to sound like I want to replace him, but I want to have the exact same feelings for my next wife.
Love you guys =.)