My ex-husband called here this afternoon, to ask to see the boys for dinner tomorrow night. Once again, he called with just a little over 24 hours notice, which is totally against our visitation agreement. As usual, I was agreeable and accommodating, for my boys sake. He was friendly as usual. I had called him earlier this week and left him a message, again that our oldest son was having problems and asked if he'd call him, he never did. He never even called me to inquire about what the problems were. He brought it up today, saying he's tried to call our son, but was unable to get through to him each time. I re-gave him his cell phone number and he then proceeded not to call our son again. This is why I don't miss him...
I also told my ex-husband about our dog, Cole. I thought he should know. This was our dog together. He bought Cole for me, after one of his disappearing acts in 1998, where he just vanished at the time for 5 months, off having an affair and then came back again. Then soon after his return, he bought Cole for us. My ex-husbands reaction to the news was very non-emotional and unsympathetic. This is another reason I don't miss him...
I've thought a lot today about the man I dated for almost a year, got very serious with and then broke things off with him back in early February. I thought about calling him today and telling him about the dogs. He loved both of them very much and he would be very sorry to hear the news and would be very sympathetic. I caught myself before I did it. As much as I'd like to tell him, talk with him, hear how he is doing, I couldn't bring myself to go there. He, at least, I have very fond memories of, even if at times he made my life nuts. There is a part of me that still loves him, misses him, but knows he just isn't good for me.
It's been a weekend of very hard emotions. The loneliness gets the better of me often too, especially after having had hard and stressful things happen, when you just want to reach out, have someone to hug and know they care. The difference is, my ex-husband never crosses my mind in that capacity anymore.