I can't see a judge ordering alimony. You have only been out of the workforce for a year. Alimony is usually intended for a spouse who was a stay at home parent and out of the workforce for many years. It's usually meant for that spouse to be able to upgrade their education or have time to find employment. Even though in retrospect it was a bad one you made a choice. As others suggested you really need to get a job now and save up some money and then leave. You may have to decide if your pets or your sanity are more important. I don't say that lightly because I have had one of my cats longer than 3 of my kids, but if I had to make a choice I'd have to choose my own well being.
When we were together, you said you'd die for me. Now, I think it's time you kept your promise.