If anyone needs to just have someone to talk to or if I can help in any way just send me an IM and I'll be sure to write back. Sometimes if your like me you just need to be assured your going in the right direction. I am and have been a Christian since I was very young I was a deacon in my church until my wife left me. But please dowlet that keep you from asking. I am by education a councilor so if I can help I will. I know what it feels like because I've been there. I was until I retired a law enforcement officer for over 20 years so there is not much I haven't seen. I've just noticed that a lot of posts get viewed but nobody answers. I know the rules of the forum and will abide by them but if you need someone to talk with let me know.